Being a damn near life long pot smoker who started early, with a mom who was totally cool with and even encouraged the habit, I know where you're coming from and I feel your pain sis. I'm just glad my addiction of choice - besides Medium - is one that hasn't managed to disrupt my health, at least not as far as I can see. With the current state of affairs, I sometimes wish I could get drunk enough not to think about sh*t, but I have a low alcohol tolerance, and a bad stomach. Thankfully, whenever I drink, I'll get sick long before I get to the point of being drunk. But you're a fighter my friend, so however you decide to handle it, my money is on you :-)