" Fortunately, I started caring less and less about what other people thought of me, at least those who didn’t really matter to me." How sad, to come to realize such dark and pent up emotions that your grandmother carried, although they were obviously rooted in her own insecurities and self hatred. It's so good that you finally came to the right conclusion about who really matters when we consider how others see us. Thanks for sharing your story K.L :-)