Goodness Charisse, it's so good to finally be at a point where you can not only share this story, but also see the humor in the absurdity of your actions or rather reactions. I totally get it. I shared a story about "almost causing my mother to die" and in it, I describe the fear I had, about the thought of cutting the blouse off my mother, when she OD'd off pills and we had to get her in a cold bath to revive her. She was near death, and all I could think about was the whooping we'd get when she saw her blouse. Fear is a hard to explain or understand emotion.