It's really so sad, that this is always the case Jeannie. People never get a chance to know how loved and cared for they were, nor how much they'll be missed. We often say how we should try to tell those we love, while they're alive, what they really mean to us, but the flip side of that, is sometimes you don't even know yourself, until that person is gone. This was a wonderful story friend, and I'm so sorry for your loss, but I appreciate your bravery - particularly in sharing your heartbreaking experience. Much love :-)