Portia, you're not alone in how you feel, but in my humble opinion, leaving FOM is not the answer. 1) You did EXTREMELY better than most in your first month. Do you know how many people have been here a year and not made that? 2) Your desire and passion to write - like mine and so many others - get in your way of comprehending what's happening on this platform with FOM. I feel like I need to scream it to the top of my lungs: It's all about READING now. Stop for one or two days and just read and engage. Have fun getting to know other writers during that time, and comment. That's it. Then notice your stats around day three or four. Please try it before you leave. We want you here :-)