What an awesome read Victoria, and so much of myself I hear in your words. You have truly given me much to think about, because I often feel like I want to be that adventurous person I once was, even if I'll never be that "girl" again. I long to take off and have adventures, like the kind I see taking place in movies. But I usually talk myself out of really going anywhere new, especially by myself. which makes me feel like I"m missing out. When I read how you felt at night in the van, being afraid at every bump in the night, I knew that was me and how I'd feel. As I read your words, I could so easily picture me going through the motions and lying to myself, and when you came home, I felt relief. You made me happy to be home, where I can create the adventures I think I'm missing, in other ways. Thank you :-)