Wow. That was the kind of experience you never stop reliving. That's what trauma does, have a way of making you relive the fear and negative feelings. My toes literally curl up in my shoes, whenever I have to use a sharp knife. I have an aversion to sharp objects, especially knives, after seeing my brother stabbed with a knife, and my inability to protect him, by stabbing someone else with a pair of scissors in my possession. I also sat on a crochet hook and got it stuck in my right thigh, and years later, was stabbed in that same thigh. To this day, I can barely touch a sharp knife. I know the toe curling thing is due to trauma.